sociopathic sympathy

I even amaze myself
Being the fool of fools
And the cunt of cunts
What other idiocy will I display?

Wow, really, fuck a duck
I am a fucking fuck, fuck
which has no rewards
Other than isolation and lonliness

A group of gay sharks gather
deep discussion rocks the ocean floor
and dolphin shit is all thAT REMAINS
when the echoes disperse

my poisons add a layer of fat
I only suck in when I remember
I am old and grey but not terminally
yet aged and riddled with repetition

Stalking, hunting and most of all dangerous
Memory and the past become one
Through and through completely complete
Nullified and exhumed my hypocrisy is perfect

A me in the past tense is subdued and wilted
Lingering on waiting for the rain, to rain
so all can be as it should, giving, honest and nourishing
yet violent chaotic and meaningless

A rainbow colours the sky and we behold
I do not comprehend it's perfect form
yet suffer it's undeniable validity
I am only just a part of a bigger picture